E-Harmony

Friend: "Hey Priscilla, since John and I broke up I'm seeing 3 guys already! I'm so excited."

Me: "What? Girl you are crazy! How did you find 3 men that fast?"

Friend: "I joined e-harmony. One is a firefighter, the second guy is a lawyer and the other just graduated from Berkly."

Ok, so if my girl-friend can find men like that on E-harmony then maybe there's hope for me. Yah I got suckered into it like that ::SNAP:: joined e-harmony for $60 (ugh.. more money being spent). Well I joined, and now I have so many men requesting me because apparently my profile 'matched' every TOM, DICK AND HARRY- Men, that I'm so not interested in.

My matches were: 1) I live with my mom... 2) I like to travel and eat...3) I play video games..

WTF!! Seriously, does my personality match up with these kind of guys?! If that's the case then I'm doomed! hahaha

Suprisingly though there was one man, ONE MAN, out of 300 guys who looked normal enough to maybe have a conversation with... This E-harmony business isn't for me, but being that I paid for it, I might as well have my laughs! ;)

Just thought I'd share... this won't be the last!

Taking a Walk...

Since I've been in the field of Human Services/Counseling I have always had the desire to help others in need. Two internships that I've had, I facilitated and directed groups in a therapeutic way. My heart was on my sleeve just ready to listen to everybody's story and allow myself to empathize with each individual. By asking questions and being curious allowed group members to open up and just let out all that was suppressed. It made me feel awesome that these individuals felt a sense of relief after sharing the things they did.

....A sense of relief is what I need.

The other day I took a lunch break from work and decided to take a walk instead of the usual eating out. It was a beautiful day anyway and I needed time alone. As I began walking around campus I started asking myself,"Have I been taking care of you?"and "Is there 'unfinished business' that I still have suppressed inside that's making me feel incomplete?" As I was walking I couldn't help but ponder that during this time I've been helping others I've been also neglecting myself. To be honest it's hard to look at yourself and see all these imperfections when the world sees you as someone else; it's the hardest thing to admit "I need help" when the world thinks your stable. Physically I'm a strong person, but mentally I'm so weak.

As these thoughts started penetrating through my mind I began to feel a little anxious. I like when I get a little anxiety though because I get things done. I began walking towards the Counseling and Psychological Center that's on the campus I work for and finally I walked-in. Finally I arrived to a place where I felt safe and secure to let all that was suppressed in me, spew out.

Walking the Red Road

Since I've entered the new year many people have been asking me," Priscilla, what's your new year resolution?" Honestly? Why make false promises to myself so I tell them, "I don't have any. It's difficult to maintain a goal the entire year when life is so unexpected and full of surprises."

What I do know is that this year I want to "Walk the Red Road." Walking the Red Road is a Native American saying that my college professor taught me years ago. When he explained the meaning to the class, I heard it, but I didn't absorb the true meaning. Now, with the experiences that I have endured I can truly embrace the meaning and appreciate it.

"To walk the Red Road is to know sacrifice, suffering. It is to understand humility. It is the ability to stand naked before the Creator in all things for your wrong doings, for your lack of strength, for your uncompassionate way, for your arrogance - because to walk the Red Road, you always know you can do better. And you know, when you do good things, it is through the Creator, and you are grateful...

To Walk the Red Road, you have less fear of being wrong, because you know that life is a journey, a continuous circle, a sacred Hoop. Mistakes will be made, and mistakes can be corrected - if you will be humble, for if you cannot be humble, you will never know when you have made a mistake. If you walk the Red Road, you know that every sorrow leads to a better understanding, every horror cannot be explained, but can offer growth....

To Walk the Red Road is to look for beauty in all things..."

Written by,

Bruce Soaring Eagle Thompson & Helen Redwing Vinson